There is a song that I used to listen to over and over when I was at my lowest point, it is called “I will answer” by Karen Davis. The opening line starts off by saying:
“More than your eyes have longed to see me, I long to be with you, more than your heart [...]
Hands up anyone who would like to see God face to face?
Most likely all of us would, and this was the same for the intimate friend and servant of God, Moses. When Moses stood on the holy mountain as recounted in Exodus he asked to know Elohim more intimately, he too [...]
It seems that once we have ascertained that God does in fact exist the next logical thought is that somehow we believe that this must mean that we don’t belong to Him, and this is a really scary place to be in. Whether we feel that we are a mistake, too much of a sinner [...]
I recently read that “self development is the key to success, fulfilment and worth”, although I could see what was meant I still wondered how they could believe it was ‘the’ key. It was only as God led me to look more deeply into the concept of personal/self development that I found that it’s truest [...]
Another diary entry
I feel so tight, claustrophobic and You seem so far away like my cries and my pains are nothing to You. I tell you that I am desperate, that I can no longer bear and I asked myself is this the reason for my existence? Do You love me at all? I [...]
I recall a line from an old journal,
“if this is healing, I never knew pain before”.
I can even recall exactly how I felt at that time, like my whole being was being pounded and twisted a thousand times to re-shape me and mould me ever more into the image of my Messiah. [...]
