I wish I had known at the beginning of my healing journey or better yet when I was ‘well’, that the Word of God had the power to set me free. I wish I had known that by trusting in my own strength that I was transgressing against the love of God extended towards me. As a self labelled neurotic I often found myself relying on my own strength rather than trusting in God to see me through. At times like this I would think to myself ‘I’m the best person to do this’ or ‘God helps those who help themselves’ and such like platitudes to justify my behaviour. The end result would always be the same I would become tired, irritable, angry, frustrated and stressed because I had shunned His love and stepped outside of His life-giving presence.
In addition, we are commanded to love God with our whole being. Whenever we disobey God’s word we are effectively going against this commandment and this is a double-edged sword. Let’s think about this for a moment, if we do not love God, who then are we loving, worshipping and obeying? Ourselves, or even worse the deceiver? Believe me when I say that Satan is not satisfied that we fell from grace and became separated from God’s glory, but he also wishes us to remain separated by placing the obstacles of self-power and self-indulgent freedom between God and us. The dividing wall has already been brought down, but like the elephant that doesn’t know it has been released from its chain we remain stuck where we are! This clever tactic disguises the fact that we are actually taking part in some form of self-worship or idolatry! It is this spiritual separation which lays down the foundation for what will be manifested in the physical realm and I feel that this is made very clear in Deuteronomy 28. When I read over this chapter, I can’t help but be overwhelmed by certain phrases and messages held within its verses. For example:
The LORD will strike you with the boils of Egypt, and with tumors and scabs and itch, of which you cannot be healed. The LORD will strike you with madness and blindness and confusion of mind, and you shall grope at noonday, as the blind grope in darkness, and you shall not prosper in your ways. And you shall be only oppressed and robbed continually, and there shall be no one to help you.
(Deuteronomy 28:27-29 ESV)
It is interesting to note in several verses YHWH says through Moses that you will become mad and confused. When we are not right with God it opens up opportunities for other spirits to come in and ‘make home’ within us. There are numerous examples in the bible which show that separation from God due to disobedience results in madness and confusion through demonic spirits. Take the example of Saul, the first King of Israel who whenever the Holy Spirit of God departed from him was overtaken by a distressing spirit:
Now the Spirit of the LORD departed from Saul, and a harmful spirit from the LORD tormented him… And whenever the harmful spirit from God was upon Saul, David took the lyre and played it with his hand. So Saul was refreshed and was well, and the harmful spirit departed from him.
(1 Samuel 16:14, 23 ESV)
And what about Solomon? Even though blessed with the gift of wisdom, he turned away from God and eventually declined into confusion, bitterness and madness. Other examples include Mary Magdalene (Luke 8) and various of those who Yeshua healed as told in the New Testament. These people had been become inhabited by demons as a direct result of a sinful life. I firmly believe that disobeying God results in increased trouble in the spiritual, psychological and physical which results in the experience stress and stress-related illnesses. The effects of our disobedience may not be as obvious or as severe as these examples which makes it easier for us to continue in our old ways, in addition to this, medical science has blurred the lines between the spiritual and the secular so that we are more likely to trust the diagnosis of a medical doctor over the authority of God’s Word.
There is a lesson to be learnt from these examples, with Elohim there is redemption, healing, salvation and life, and without Him there is heartbreak, pain, destruction and death. With Him there is a blessing and without Him there is a curse; the choice of which route we experience is in our hands, He has given this power to us. I could make it easy and say that what we do doesn’t matter as long as we believe in Yahushua, but I would be lying. I could say that as long as we believe then their will be no repurcussions for our sin, again I would be lying. The truth is that regardless of whether we believe or not their are always consequences for our behaviour, it is the law of reaping what we sow. But I’m not talking about karma, karma suggests that this is a very passive law which can be manipulated for our own benefit. No, Elohim is not a passive force, He is alive and active, and His Word is able to cut deep into our innermost being to discern the intent behind our actions. Yes, God cannot abide sin, and there are consequences for our ungodly actions but He is also merciful, He searches our innermost recesses to find the truth of our souls within us. He knows our desire to love and serve Him and this is greater than our failings, HalleluYah! His desire is to transform us so that we can experience life in Him, the desire of Satan is to keep us in bondage, so it all boils down to one question, who would you rather trust your life to, God or Satan?